I've been keeping myself busy the last few days (well, trying to anyway) working on some home improvement projects. I really like our house on post. It was very apartment-ish though with all the white wall, white blinds, white linoleum and beige carpet. I had Gus's room set up pretty early on because he already had lots of colorful things to use, curtains my mom made, paintings my sister made etc. But the general living area is pretty dull. We have one gigantic room that is the dining and living room and it was just big and plain and echo-y with the lack of decor. So I started installing curtain rods, buying and hanging curtains and wow! What a huge change! It's really starting to look more like a home and less like a place we're just staying at for a bit. Then last night I was admiring my handiwork and was struck with the thought that Gunnar will be coming home to a totally different place than he left. It made me so sad to think of it that way. It seems totally ridiculous to not buy a new rug, some curtains and new bedding (can I get a hell yeah for tax returns?) so this place is welcoming and comforting and cozy for me and the kids. But a big huge part of me wants this place to be exactly the same for him.
I wonder if it would bother him if he went to grab a dish towel and can't find them because I decided 7 months ago I like them in a different drawer. Would he be upset about things like that? Every time I buy a new article of clothing for the kids I think of Gunnar seeing them in it and not even recognizing it because it wasn't here when he left. Those are things that would really bother me if I were away for a long time. I don't know why, but they would.
I guess I've made up my mind that I am going to get this place looking good and not waiting for Gunnar to go shopping with me for area rugs. I really hope he likes what I'm doing with the place. The curtains I ended up with look more feminine than I anticipated but they were a pain in the ass to hang so they're staying put, dammit. To make up for all the floral I got sleek modern bedding that I think he'll really like!
It's too early right now, but once I get around to hanging pictures, I'll post some pictures of the place.
We are girls so we worry about that kind of stuff but I don't think most guys even think like that. Most likely Gunnar will be so happy to be surrounded by his beautiful family he won't care what they are wearing or what the drapes on the windows look like! Hang in there! It's probably good to stay busy... like your two kids don't keep you busy enough!
ReplyDeleteI wish they kept me busier! This is the most busy I've been since we moved down here I think. I was looking at my calendar a few weeks ago and seriously, the only thing on my schedule in March was to turn the clocks ahead for daylight savings. I'm not kidding. It's a big day if I find a good reason to get out of the house. You're probably right though, that's the stuff that girls think about, I am just so ready to have him back.
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